Wednesday, November 30, 2011

I'm {blank} because...

I’m weird because…
I drive with the windows down while the ac is on.
If I cook spaghetti, I won’t eat it until the next day.  That means I only eat the  spaghetti noodles the first night.
If I happen to be awake at 2am, I would check to see if Oswald (from NickJr) is on and if so, I’d sit there and watch it.  I’m an Oswald and Little Bear fan and I wish they would bring back Pinky Dinky Doo and 64 Zoo Lane.

I’m a bad friend because…
I don’t make an effort to visit when I’m home.
I’m not quick to return text messages.
I’m a party-pooper when it comes to getting together without my family.

I’m a good friend because…
I’m a listener.
I’m there when you need me.
I’ll be the one to come and get your ass no matter what time it is or where you’re at.

I’m sad because…
Time is flying by way too  fast.  November has come to an end, Christmas is right around the corner, and before you know it we’ll be celebrating the New Year.
My radicals are growing up.
We live so far away from family.

I’m happy because…
I’m 99.9% done with my Christmas shopping.  That’s a first!  I’m one of those wait- until-the-very-last-minute people.
I’m blessed to have the mister as my partner and two happy healthy radicals.
Diapers are becoming sooo last season!

I’m excited for…
My very first holiday meal that I’m making!
The New Year and what it has in store for us.
The look on the radicals faces when they open their Christmas present.

Happy Hump Day!
jenn

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Thanksgiving Week-ending…Recap

I wanted to post this yesterday but life got in the way…

This year Thanksgiving was actually enjoyable!  There was no minimal bickering/drama.  A week before Thanksgiving my dad announced that we were going out to a buffet and of course I had to throw a hissy fit.  Well I guess it worked because the week of Thanksgiving he said we were doing our traditional feast.  Yeah!  Anyway, we did the drive home Thanksgiving morning and although my mission was to get there before 9am, it didn’t happen and I missed my beloved Macy’s Day Parade (sad face).  Oh well, there’s always next year.

This was the first year that we were actually on schedule with dinner (insert high five!).  My g-ma from Hilo came to spend the holiday with us which was nice since the rest of my family rarely sees her. 

I ventured out of my normal baking and made apple crisp.  My dad said “OMG!  This is so good!  It’s to die for!”  I got the recipe from Natalie over at The Busy Budgeting Mama.  I’ll be sure to post the recipe later and you can bet that I’ll be making it for Christmas.

My brother and his gf went to Wal-Mart for the Black Friday or pre-Black Friday or whatever they call it.  I was very tempted to go with but I was stuffed to the brim and totally dysfunctional.  Haha.  The mister and I went on Friday around 11am (minus the radicals) and I was kicking myself in the rear for not going the night before because, of course, everything was gone.  Duh, Jenn!  The mister scored his drill set at Home Depot and we got the rest of the stuff to finish our kitchen.  Anyway, Target had a Nikon digital camera on sale for $99 and I missed purchasing one by 4 hours.  Gosh darnit, if we didn’t spend HOURS in Home Depot I would have scored one.  But that’s okay, I’m just stoked that I got 99.9% of my Christmas shopping done, I got to spend some qt with the mister, and I got my Hayashi fix.  Oh Hayashi, how I’ve longed for you…it’s a hole in the wall sushi joint where you can make your own roll.  Well, not really make it yourself but you can choose whatever you want to go in your roll.  And the prices are awesome.  5 bucks for 8 jumbo pieces…I was in heaven.

We made the drive back home on Saturday and I ran into a sweet friend that I haven’t seen in months.  I also got to see her little man that I’ve named the Michelin Man because that little guy has the cutest rolls!  It was still daylight when we got home and the mister was so excited to use his drill that he went straight to work in the kitchen.  He put up our shelf, installed the new door handle for my pantry and then he wanted to put up the door for our hallway closet.  He was so drill-happy that he kept asking me if there was anything else I needed done.  Boys and their toys…

And that’s about it!  It was very peaceful, relaxed, and I was happy to be surrounded by my family.

I hope y’all had a Happy Thanksgiving and an awesome weekend with family and friends.

Until then,
jenn

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

I'm Thankful...

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I’m posting this today because we’ll be on the road tomorrow in the wee hours of the morning and I won’t have a computer.  We’re going home for Thanksgiving weekend!  It’s been a month since I’ve been home and I’m in need for some family time.

After posting my complicated living situation I was feeling a little Debbie Downer-ish.  Although I get all emotional and remember the hurt and bitterness, I’m reminded that it’s made me a stronger person.  Anyway, with that said…

I’m Thankful for…

-          The bumpy road I’ve traveled.  I’ve learned from it, I’m a changed person, my outlook on life is more positive.  I took a crappy situation and used it as a motivator to get my life back on track.
-          My radicals.  They changed my world.  They are my everything.  I’ll love and cherish them forever and a day.
-          The mister.  We’ve been through a lot.  Our ups and downs and everything in between but we’re still standing strong.
-          My mom, dad, family, and friends.  They are my encouragement, support, and my worst critics who keep me in check (haha)!
-          Mr. Moscato.  My bff during happy hour ;)
-          Blogland and the lovelies behind the blogs.  Y’all, I’m serious!  The inspiration, support, encouragement.  It’s amazing.

Alrighty friends!  I hope y’all have a wonderful Thanksgiving.  Enjoy the yummy food and time with family and friends!  Oh, and does anybody get all crazy and aggressive during Black Friday?  Do I need a helmet and body padding?  Catch y’all next week!

jenn

Tuesday, November 22, 2011

It's Complicated - Part 3

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If you missed Part 1 and 2, you can go here and here.    


I have to clean all this?  Say what?...


Here I am with the last part.  I promise, I’ll get to the actual part of why my living situation is complicated.  Here we go…  

So, in part two you learned that I became a SAHM.  Being a SAHM is awesome.  I love it!  But with that comes the “stay-at-home” part.  Haha, clever huh?  Anyway, I never really took much notice before but now that I’m home all the time, I noticed that this lady has so much stuff!  We’re talking borderline hoarder status.  Everywhere you turn there is stuff.  Every inch of this house has stuff.  I’m not kidding.  It’s so much stuff that it needs to be cleaned like every week just so that the dust and grime wouldn’t settle.  And it’s hard to ignore when I’m home every day.  

I grew up with a white glove Nazi of a mother, so too much stuff and I don’t go well together. 

I’m going to back it up just a bit with how I didn’t have time to think about it when I was working.  Once a year I would do a major cleaning but since I was on a time crunch, there was no room for grumbling.  I would clean and grumble at the same time.  I would curse at all the knick-knacks that had a year’s worth of dust and grime on them.  But I’d clean them anyway.  And let’s get real here, I wanted to spend my days off with the Radical, not cleaning a bajillion knick-knacks that didn’t belong to me.  I also didn’t think about how this house was not baby-proof because again, we were never home.  Okay, back to the story….

So there I was, a SAHM, being stared at by all this stuff.  I would clean them but as time went on, I would get the itch to put things away.  I honestly was getting tired of cleaning her bajillion knick-knacks.  Who wouldn’t?  I didn’t box these things up but I was starting to move them in her room; out of sight.  I started off slow and inconspicuous with the knick-knacks but eventually her room ran out of room.  It had turned into a storage space which was a problem because 1) I would have to put everything back when Merrie Monarch week rolled around, 2) what would happen if she did a surprise visit, and 3) it was an eye sore.  


The Mister gave me the green light to relocate the furniture that wasn’t baby-proof because now that we’re home all the time, the Radical needed space to roam.  


Then I got another itch.  I was starting to feel like I needed my own space.  I wanted pictures of my own family up, I wanted my own d├ęcor up but I can’t do that if there is no room.  I didn’t want to add more stuff to the already stuff-filled house. I wanted a space that felt like my own.  


I wanted our living space to feel like our own but there was one problem: this is still her house.  I feel like I was stepping over some kind of boundaries by putting her stuff away.  What would happen if she came home to visit and all her stuff was put away?  I had a sense of fear.  I anticipated the worst.  There was one time I put away a side table she had out in the living room because it had pointy edges.  With a toddler learning to walk, it was a disaster waiting to happen.  So I moved it but it found its way back into the living room when she was home for Merrie Monarch.


Little knick-knacks (like figurines that the Radical could easily break or rocks) that I put away found their way back to where I took it from.  And I was just getting tired of telling the Radical a million times over not to touch or play with her things.  It would be my fault it he broke it and I honestly didn’t want to go there.  I’d rather just put her things away. So we can all have peace of mind.  But no, things I put away come right back out.  


And that pool table she “bought for the house”?  We have no room for a pool table and we don’t have time to play pool.  But she buys it anyway and ships it over and where does it go?  In the living room where the Radicals play.  I can’t even begin to tell you my frustrations with this.  Did she forget that we have a baby and a toddler?  Do you know the mini heart-attack I had when the Mister forgot to put the balls away?  Radical #1 thought it was an actual ball to throw.  


And that my friends, is why living here is so complicated.  Yes we pay rent and utilities and live here 24/7 but it’s still her house.  I don’t know how to describe my feelings.   I guess it’s a mixture of me not being in control of my surroundings and how she puts the things I put away, back where they were just for me to put it away (again) when she leaves.  I get that it’s her house and she has a say but at the same time she doesn’t live here.  It’s a touchy subject.  


However, the Mister is finally comprehending my feelings because we just re-did the kitchen (I’ll post on that later) and we’re talking about re-doing the whole house.  
I still have some of her stuff out but the bulk of it is put away.  I mean, there’s no inkling that she’s coming home and if I can’t move then I might as well get creative and roll with it.  Not only am I creating my own space but we’re giving her house a facelift at the same time.  A win-win situation again.  The way I look at it is we’re holding up our end of the deal with ‘taking care of the house’ just minus all the ‘stuff’.  


So there you have it…my complicated living situation.  I’m okay though.  I’m learning to embrace this time in our lives; live, learn, and move on.  And not to forget to love and laugh along the way!  


Why did I tell you this? Well, 1) so y’all don’t get confused in the future when I talk about my complicated living situation and 2) I’m not afraid to blog about how I’m human and my life includes spiders, ants, and miniature prehistoric creatures alongside the butterflies and rainbows.  

Happy Tuesday, sweets!  And guess what’s in two days, besides Thanksgiving?  THE MACY’S DAY PARADE!!!  Yes I’m shout-typing because I’m that excited!!!

jenn

Friday, November 18, 2011

It's Complicated - Part 2

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Happy Friday Friends!

I have to say that I’ve been a bit apprehensive about sharing this.  I’ve been afraid that somehow the Mister’s mom would come across my little ‘ol blog and read this and then hate me forever.  But you know what?  These are my feelings and everyone is allowed to have feelings right?  Right. 


I feel obligated to stay…


Like I said in my last post – I thought this was temporary.  But I apparently our definitions of “temporary” are different.  


Radical #1 was born in April of 2008.  I continued to work and I felt so lucky to have the best babysitter in the world, Miss Connie Lou over at Island Buzzy.  She is awesome and I trusted her.  She put my day-care paranoia at ease because let’s face it, who doesn’t have anxiety and fear of having someone you don’t really know watch your kid(s)?  I have major paranoia. 

Then I got pregnant with Radical #2 in 2009 and I also lost my job (crap!).  Raging hormonal pregnant lady…that was me.  I never prepared for the worst and the worst was happening.  Losing my job meant losing my income and benefits so yes, I had a meltdown.  

I finally came to my sense (having a meltdown wasn't helping anyone) and went through my options.  I could easily find another job and all will be well in the world.  But I was informed that my beloved babysitter was no longer available.  Cue another meltdown.  Because remember, I had major daycare paranoia.  

Then I had the bright idea of moving back to Kona.  I had more resources there and I had babysitters there.  It was in fact the perfect plan; I had jobs, babysitters, and we would be closer to family and friends.  Why didn’t I think of this sooner?  

Oh, because I forgot about this house!  “What’s my mom going to do about this house?” was the Mister’s question.  Honestly, I felt like that wasn’t our concern anymore.  What we should be concerned about was how we were going to support our family.  Up until I lost my job, I was the one with the steady income.  Don’t get me wrong, the Mister is a hard worker but he’s in the construction industry and work wasn’t really stable.  I was certain that he could find work in Kona but the obligation we had to his mom and this house was on the forefront.  

Yes, I felt crappy for putting a halt on what she was doing but I also felt that I had to think of my family first and the situation we were in.  There was another option: the Radicals and I could move to Kona while the Mister stayed back to take care of the house.  But I really didn’t want to separate my family on his mom’s behalf.  Why should my family have to suffer because she’s not ready to come home?  But the reasons for moving didn’t matter and all they could think about was this house.  

So I sucked it up and looked for jobs and daycare here.  I found some jobs but the reality was that I would be working just to pay for daycare.  What’s the sense in that?  And so I began my journey as a stay-at-home mom.  It made me very nervous that the Mister was taking over the financial part of our lives.  

I was no longer in control.  The first year was financially difficult.  Scraping coins, deciding which bill was going to be paid and which ones had to wait, and just stressing out on how we were supposed to live.  It was hard to budget with a sporadic income.  It was tough and it tested my patience like never before.  I became depressed and bitter towards the Mister.  We were constantly arguing and I just couldn’t help it when awful things would come flowing out of my mouth.  Things like “you and your mom put us in this position!” or “if you and your mom weren’t so selfish we wouldn’t be having this conversation so it ain’t my problem!”  

I started to realize that instead of being a snappy witch, I should have been more positive and encouraging towards the Mister.  My crappy attitude wasn’t helping him or our situation.  I have to say that this situation and the years to follow have brought us together; it’s made us stronger as a couple.  We’ve lived it, we’ve learned from it, and now we’re moving forward…as a family.  We’ve grown, we’ve changed, and we have a better outlook on life. 

So maybe I shouldn’t say I feel obligated to stay but more so, I feel it’s best for our family to stick together.  In time, things will start to look up.  After all, this is life and nobody said life was easy.    

jenn

Thursday, November 17, 2011

It's Complicated - Part 1

I know, I know.  I said that my goal was to post more often and once again I’ve been mia.  Please forgive me for I have been battling spiders and breaking out in a rash since Sunday.  Spiders, ants, and little bug like insects that look like miniature prehistoric dinosaurs things.  My skin is crawling as I type this…yuckers.

I was going to post about how “it’s that time of year again!”  Meaning, we or more so I wreck shop this time of year.  But the more I thought about it, I decided that y’all would be confused as to why I hate wrecking shop in this house if I didn’t explain why I hate it so much.  I don’t want y’all to think that I’m anti-clean; I’m actually the opposite.  But our living situation is, well…complicated.  If you know the story then you will know I’m not crazy and that I really do dread cleaning this house and living here for the rest of my life.  So here it goes.  I’m spilling my guts.  Sometimes (normally when I’m cleaning) I’d ask myself how the heck did I get myself in this position.  Well…

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How we got here…

It all started back in January 2005 when the company I used to work for moved me across the island to Hilo.  As much as I hated the idea and the company for making me move I didn’t have a choice.  It was literally “move or find another job.”  And it had to be the first choice because good jobs were hard to come by.  The notice of this move was ridiculous.  They gave me maybe 3 days at the most.  I was still in a shock and confused state when I got to my new location.  Anyway, I still had the lease at my apartment so I was kind of shit out of luck financially with finding a new place to live and still having to pay for my apartment back home.

The mister is from hilo so he jumped on the band wagon and said he was moving back home to him mom’s house since I had to move.  We were in our relationship just shy of a year and there was no way I was going to move in with them.  Even if we were together for ten years I wouldn’t move in.  I just don’t do well living with people.  So he told his mom about what my company schemed up for me and she’s all “oh, you can just stay here until you figure things out.”  Well, since I had such short notice of this whole shenanigan and I didn’t have anything together, I caved and decided to take her up on her offer.

I was making the drive from hilo to kona and back a lot.  I basically lived out of the trunk of my car.  I didn’t want to move all my stuff in because I wasn’t ready to face the reality that I was living in hilo-a place that I vowed I’d never live since I was a kid.  It’s like living on another planet.  The people, the environment, the lifestyle… was just different.  I hated it, my relationship with the mister was hitting a rough patch, and not to mention I was still trying to recover from the crappy and bizarre event that rocked my world back in January 2004.  Talk about one thing after another.

Anyway, instead of facing reality I hid from it.  I hid behind alcohol and partying.  I just didn’t want to deal with it.  I didn’t want to deal with life.  The alcohol made me forget about everything and it made me feel good despite the hangovers (haha).  It worked for a while but it caught up with me.  September 2005  rolled around and even though I didn’t see it at the time, what happened next was going to change my life forever.  I decided that I was going to go out (by myself) one night and ended up getting wasted, eventually ran into the mister while wasted, and got into the hugest fight ever.  About what?  I don’t know.  I ended up moving out the next day, lived at a hotel for a couple of days, and then moved in with a friend.  The mister and I called it quits for about a day, got back together under the condition that I was no longer allowed to consume alcohol (anger+alcohol=no bueno), but I thought living apart would do us some good.  Well that lasted about three weeks when we went out to dinner one night.  He told me that his mom asked if I could come home.  I ended up moving back to his mom’s house and a couple weeks (if I recall correctly) after that she asked us if we would take care of the house because she wanted to move to Moloka’i.  “huh?  Um, okay” is what I think I said.

In the beginning I thought this was going to be temporary.  And I guess I thought wrong because it’s been 6 years of living here and she still hasn’t come home.  To be totally honest, I don’t think she’s coming home because she moved out of Moloka’i last year but instead of moving home, she moved to O’ahu.  Hmph. 

Thanks for sticking with me friends!  I promise I’ll get to the point.  Stay tuned for part two! 

Have a HAPPY day!
jenn

Monday, November 14, 2011

I'm Not Crazy!

Happy Monday Friends!

As soon as November graced us with its presence I wanted my Christmas decorations up.  I decided to wait until we were into the second week and when that time arrived I asked the mister if he could bring up all of the Christmas decorations and the tree.  Yes, we have an artificial tree (argh! long story, maybe later).  Anyway, when I asked him, he gave me the ‘YOU’RE CRAZY!’ look and went on and on about how it’s too early and we didn’t even celebrate Thanksgiving yet and blah, blah, blah! 

I may be crazy but with this, I surely am not and here are my reasons: 1) the stores already had their Christmas stuff up for weeks now, 2) Christmas is in the air and I’ve been seeing commercials on tv for a week now, 3) there are people who already have their tree and decorations up, and 4) the holiday season is going to come and go super fast and I just want to enjoy my tree and decorations and the holiday feeling as long as possible!

I asked the mister again last night about our tree and decorations and he’s all “okay” with a tone that I know all too well.  He’s just telling me okay just to get me to shut it about the subject.  Poor guy-I probably have him overwhelmed with all the projects going on in this house and maybe one more thing is just too much for him to take in.  We are currently wrecking shop in our kitchen and he’s so focused on getting it done that he doesn’t want to think of anything else.  So, I thought of a brilliant plan: I’ll just get all the boxes myself!  The radicals and I can put up the tree and when the mister comes home, we can all decorate!  Good plan Jenn, good plan.

So see, I’m not crazy.  I’m actually behind time on the Christmas decorating wagon.

jenn

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Jenn: A - Z

I’ve seen this twice across the blogsphere and I thought it would be fun to join in!  So here it goes, the ABC’s of little ‘ol me:

A: age – 30!!  Can I get a woohoo?!?!  30 is the new 20, right?

B: bed size – Cal king and I don’t really like it only because it’s short.  Is it supposed to be that way or did I get a lemon?  Haha!

C: chore that you hate – cleaning the bajillion knick-knack “decorations”.  Ugh.  I know it may sound weird but y’all will get it once I post my complicated living situation.

D: dogs – a pitbull named Maka because he has cute patches over his eyes.  I used to have another pitbull, Daisy, but she’s been mia for a year now (sad, sad face).

E: essential start to you day – C.O.F.F.E.E.  It’s a must or else my crabby-ness will make an appearance.

F: favorite color – hhmmm, I love pink.  I also love green.

G: gold or silver – both?  They remind me of Christmas and if I had it my way, my decorations wouldn’t come down.  Ever. 

H: height – 4’11.5”.  I believe I will make it to 5’ before I die.

I: instruments you play – I used to play the clarinet in middle school but now I play the drums made out of pots and pans.  Did you know the radicals and I have our own band?

J: job title – SAHM.  Don’t hate.

K: kids – 2 radicals: Tyson-Alexander (3) & Tylan-Joseph (2).  ‘Baby’ has been circulating the brain lately…maybe it’ll be a girl when that time comes.

L: live – The Big Island, Hawaii

M: mother’s name – mom, mum, mother

N: nicknames – Jenn or Ola (short for Neola.  Fun fact: the name is Greek, not Hawaiian)
P: pet peeve – when a certain someone drops his dirty laundry next to the dirty hamper instead of in the hamper.  And when there’s something on the ground that doesn’t belong on the ground, that same certain someone will walk over it instead of picking it up.

Q: quote from a movie – I can’t think of one, for the life of me.  I haven’t watched a movie in years.  Come to think of it, I don’t think I’m a movie kind of person.  It’s hard to enjoy, let alone follow a movie with two little radicals.

R: right or left handed – right

S: siblings – 2 younger brothers

T: time you wake up – normally between 4:30 and 5am but it’s been abnormal around these parts lately (sad face).

U: underwear – as in do I wear underwear?  Yes, yes I do.

V: vegetables you hate – is bittermelon considered a vegetable?  If so, I hate it.  I’d rather eat my arm or something.

W: what makes you run late? – me.  I think my mother cursed me.  We were always late when I was growing up and I promised myself I would change that when I was older.  Mission not accomplished.  I’m working on it though.

X: x-ray’s you’ve had – I think I’ve only had them on my teeth.

Y: yummy food that you make – my honey walnut shrimp gives the Lemongrass restaurant “hard rub” says the mister, chicken chow fun, & mochiko chicken.

Z: zoo animals – penguins

Have a Happy Thursday!
jenn

Wednesday, November 9, 2011

Finding my Balance...

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I did it again-I took on more than I can handle.  Wait, I can handle it, I just need to find my balance first.  I’ve been meaning to post this a couple weeks ago but every time I attempted to write, I couldn’t find the right words.  I still haven’t found the right words but here it goes…

Although being a SAHM is the best job in the world, I’ve been feeling like I need something more.  Something that defines me.  I’m not just “mom” or the “gf”-I’m more than that.  And then I would get the question “what do you do?”  In the beginning I would answer with “oh, I’m a stay-at-home mom!”  Some reactions were pleasant and some were snarky.  After a while the snarky comments started to get to me and I constantly questioned myself.  But then I would come back to planet Earth and validate myself because this job is hard work.  Yeah, I may not be doing physical labor or stuck in an office all day but I am raising two little radicals.  It’s like one big emotional roller coaster ride.  My mind is constantly going, I’m always multi-tasking, and just the thought that I am responsible for them is overwhelming.

Fast forward a couple of years.  The radicals are now 2 and 3 and somewhat independent, meaning I don’t have to be in their face all the time.  The feeling of I need something that defines me has returned so I decide that now would be a good time to go back to school.  It turns out that going back to school was much more of a challenge than I thought but I managed.

A little back story before I go on about working with my mom…five or six years ago my mom and I started a bookkeeping business.  At the time I was already working full-time and going to school and that didn’t leave me with much time to take part in the business.  My mom carried on with it and my duties were put on hold until I could figure out how in the world I was going to add another twelve hours to my day (haha!).  Anyway, I dropped school (bad move) but work was still hectic.  I ended up losing my job in 2009, was depressed and wandering aimlessly for about a year, finally got my sh*t together in 2010, and here I am now….

okay, so back to finding my balance.

About four months after starting school my mom and I were talking about how this was a good time for me to start “working” the business.  Awesome!  I can do that and it wouldn’t hurt to start getting my “experience” in since I’m studying accounting right now.  Oh and, getting paid is a great perk!  The first client I had really tested my limits.  I was dying!  Not with the work itself but with trying to find time to work.  So I ended up sacrificing my sleep just to get this done.  I already sacrificed sleep for school and now for work so that equals no sleep very minimal sleep.  But I managed!  I sort of came up with a “schedule” and all was going to be okay.

Now, I have this big idea circulating the brain…as if I don’t have enough stuff to do right?  Anyway, I’m not telling what this big idea is-I’ll save that for when it becomes a reality.  But for now, what I can tell you is that it consumes my time and I’m only in the planning process (insert nervous laugh). 

So I have all this stuff going on and I’m feeling great about finding things that define me BUT I’m forgetting my number one priority: my family.  Ugh, that’s heartbreaking to see that in writing but it’s the truth.  This whole time I was so focused on finding me, being happy, being superwoman that I forgot the one thing, my family, which truly makes me happy.  Yeah, I can have all those things that define me but my family is my number one priority.  I have the privilege to be a SAHM and time is sure flying by so I want to cherish these years that I have with my radicals because one daaayyyy they won’t be so little anymore.

Did I find my balance?  Um, I’m getting there.  I’m learning to really question myself when an opportunity presents itself.  I’m learning to prioritize my things around my family, not my family around my things.  I’m learning to see reality and not think that there are 48 hours in one day.  I’m learning that in time my dreams and goals will happen but that time is not at this very moment.  Seeing my family happy makes me happy and everything else will fall in place when it’s time…

And now that I’ve blogged your eyeballs off, there you have it-why I’ve been mia once again.  i don’t know about you but I’ve been seeing a mia trend going on here.  I’m hoping to post more often because 1) I don’t to bore you with my long posts and 2) I got tons of stuff/tales/omg! moments/recipes waiting to embrace the pages of my little blog.

Happy Day Lovelies!!

jenn